Re Vamping

Life is moving No matter how slow I go Woke up with a bump Im like its really real Inside I smile Outside I hide Cant show to much Happiness Cause someone will try to Take it So to the outsiders I fake it Till I make it April will be here Before I know it Cant hide from the world Cause forreal Im showing Figured because I was Already large it wouldnt Show till later Guess I was wrong No control But I try to stay in it Emotions Are subsiding Talking to my granny She reminded me Of me And all that I have endured Its my time for happiness Just happy she is here for it all My secret piece of sanity She dont understand what She means to me So with her approval And remembering me Imma do just that me!

People always ask How are you friends with your Exes and the answer is always  The same I love who I love Even though the love aint the same True love comes from within And to see them happy Makes my heart smile When I give myself  To a person  I cant get it back And I personally  Like to keep it close Im an empath So naturally if they Go through something So do I  Sounds weird I know But its true Cause my relationship with love Is beyond the person  Its in the energy Its in the friend in me I study my partners  From silence to the loudest sound So I can tell forced happiness And that makes me frown No longer my problem  But I can feel the vibes All around Needless to say as long as Happiness is present  Real love is happening I wont have a reason to make a  Sound Knowing what one deserves  I smile if you smile No hate over here But Ill but a spell...

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tk2vb6uqfzdzatdpgvimbxe7o5i?t=Change_Your_World_-_Anthony_Hamilton

My goodness Who ever does this More then twice You got it Emotions Tears Laughs Some many things Come to pass I know I annoy them Somethings I cant control But everything is good Month 5 is coming We are on a roll He happy So is she The team is coming together Not what expected But I'm blissful to exist in it One on my left One on my right One in between What more to ask for I know what i mean Wanting for nothing But receiving it all Most thought This was a downfall Dont need them for nothing We just enhance one another A level of trust Beyond lust Something not even created yet There is no matter Cause we all do the same Two mommies One daddy Baby gonna insane So much love And acceptance We all believe no weapon Getting use to this So this is what they mean When they say BLISS

Holding back tears Trying not to let em go They say its better if you let em flow Ask me why im crying Ion even know Guess I am really On my water flow When they drop down Where do they go Does God catch em To help you heal the pain Or do they just evaporate Like rain Are they collected Then put in a puddle of sadness I have so many I dont know My wavelenghth is messed up With my water flow Tainting the lines Ill just let them weld up Until my tear ducks tell me Enough is enough

No regrets Laughs actually All love Thats factually Notifications Have seem to take over Thank goodness I live Out here in Dover Honestly think I was the best thing for me Time to move again To the birds and the bees Glad it dont sting Been stung by a bee One real And one subliminally Both hurt the same And lasted the same amount of time Fuck ion have none Tired of wasting it What if I can never shake it Is this what shit is about Would I really give it all up Without doubt Tears fall Slow tell em Ion know but I know Wonder how many tears shed How many nights with open eyes How many imma let go Cause its not mine Life is but a dream But mine are too vivid Things you wanna dream About Are better to just live in

Different today Then yesterday Yet still the same My core dont change My foundation isnt broken The words I write free me Allow me to be me Without hesitation Thought I could just stop writing But why should I mute me Why should I suffer in silence When this was here before anything I loved was near My first love Was when I wrote my first line Gotta lotta books with my words Could write something in the nick of time Without a shadow of a doubt My words would just fall out Pour from my brain The feeling can be quite insane But the rush I get Will never subside So I will continue  On this writing Ride 

Slowly but surely Slow and steady wins the race The tortoise and the hare Tired not sleepy Eyes heavy not weepy Catch me? Too bad I have fallen already Scared but who can I tell forreal Just one night No regrets Nothing on my mind No need for time Cause I dont want it to exist Not worried about tomorrow But all this comes with sorrow So back to my fantasy I go Close my eyes so tight I can see the stars In the daylight I can see mars In love with love I dont make sense Hoping one can see through

Life will never be the same Gotta stop chasing the me That lived carefree Gotta learn how to live Carefully That spark that use to burn Has lost its flame Guess this what it means To actually live Moments of happiness Live for just that Can never be okay Without a what if Really over existing In this realm Take me back Can I hit restart Cause everything here Taste tart Cant say that I knew this part would never come Tired of explaining myself Starting to loose my wealth Not in dollar signs But in life and time What to I really want Something you cant say out loud Keep it inside Let it fester Eventually it will pass You can plan But whats for me will be The cards will fall Over-standing that no matter the choice This will be This is me